It was two months ago! I was sitting in a dimly lit room, bible by my side, praying to God, struggling with the question, should I stay or should I go. A week before that I believed I had heard God tell me to go, to leave my home, my church, my scholarship, and my seminary behind. In that room that night I was confused, nervous, and above all scared. I wondered did I really hear God, or is this just what I want. I was scared that I would choose the wrong path. I was scared to leave it all behind. So I sat there, praying, meditating, searching, and evening crying, wondering what to do next. Then in a moment of anguish and utter desperation I cried out to my Lord, "God, I know you hear me, so if you are there tell me something!" With that declaration, I did all that I knew to do, and I opened by bible randomly to Acts, and on that page there was a set of red letters Acts 18: 9-10, and they read like this:
And the Lord said to Paul one night in a vision, "Do not be afraid, but go on speaking and do not be silent, for I am with you, and no one will attack you to harm you, for I have many in this city who are my people."
As I read that passage it spoke right to my heart and in them I heard God tell me to go and preach His gospel to the nations, and to not be afraid because He was with me. So, that night I decided to go, fresh out of college, about to start seminary on a full ride, I decided to go to the nations and leave all that behind. I decided to embark on a new beginning, the next chapter in my God written story.
That is what this blog is all about. This my love story between God and me. In here I will chronicle all that is going on in my life. All of the pains, all of cheers, all of joys, and all of the tears. This blog will let you know what I am doing, and what I am thinking, which at times can be very dangerous. I would ask that as you read, you would leave your comments, along with prayers and encouragement, and at same time leave prayer requests as you see fit.
My journey will to Youth With A Mission will begin in less than a month. On September 25th, I will leave Massillon, Ohio in route for Kansas City, Kansas, where I will reunite with two friends from the mission trip to Thailand that I went on with the Xtreme Team last summer. After spending time there and speaking at an area church I will depart to Denver, where I hope to speak at a local church before beginning my Discipleship Training School (DTS) with Youth With A Mission. At my DTS I will not learn about God, but will fall deeper in love with Him as I am led into a deeper relationship with Him. If you would like more information on YWAM visit www.ywam.org, that I have linked to this blog, or if you would like more info on my DTS visit www.ywamdenver.org.
Right now, there are others that God is calling, and you are sitting there in fear afraid to leave, afraid to take that next step. Please let this blog be encouragement to you. You are not alone, and fear not for God is with you, and He will be with you no matter where you go. Not only do you have God who is more than enough, but you have His army to go with. So, please take that next with me!
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