Conviction/Selfishness

Today as I was driving to pick up Amanda, my fiancee, God brought me to a stark realization. In his gentleness, He convicted me of my selfishness. He showed me how much He had given me, people He had put in front of me, and insights/revelations He had given me. Then He showed me how I had taken those lights, and put them under a basket.

Now this decision to hide the light that the Lord had given me was not intentional. It was not as if I had saw the light, and intentionally decided to keep it hidden all to myself. Rather it was a sin of omission. I had the light and simply did not shine it. I kept it within. Partly because of laziness/busyness, and partly out of insecurity.

This was because I really did not understand what I had. I did not see the light the Lord had given me, and so I hid it. It really did not register to me that words of so many people that I encountered will not make it to countless peoples ears, and revelations God had given me may never be directly given to anyone else. The words of freedom I was hearing could never free people from their chains, simply because they would never encounter them. Thus it was my responsibility to share them.

In fact, that is what this blog is all about. Currently, there are not many people who view it, but there are some. God's desire for this blog is that it would communicate messages to people that would not otherwise hear them. In doing so I would become a bridge for those are not where I am, and thereby connecting to where I am, so they can hear what I hear and receive revelations God has given me. This is my job as a steward of God's grace.

A job that I have not been performing very well. So for those who read this please forgive me for not sharing the light that God has given me. Forgive me for not releasing the grace of God that He has called me to steward. I have buried my treasure instead of multiplying it, and that action is not worthy of the Kingdom of God (Matthew 25: 14-20). .

This is both a plea for forgiveness, as well as a call for others to do the same. You see I did not share because I did not count what I had worthy enough to be read and communicated, and as a result I was both unthankful for the treasure God had given me, and robbing people of a treasure God intend me to disperse. For those of you who are reading this you have a treasure that the world is waiting to receive and only you can give it. So, let's join together in taking our light out of the basket and fighting darkness. Let's go take on darkness, which cannot overcome our light (John 1:5).

My prayer is that you would have boldness to proclaim the Gospel and the mysteries of the Kingdom of God. May God grant you wisdom and the revelation of his love and power in your life, and may you never be ashamed of the Gospel that brings life to all who believe. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. May God empower us to be guides to the lost world. And may our lights shine brighter than the North Star as beacons of hope to the lost looking for a way home. In Jesus name may it be so. Amen!