The Father Heart of God!

I am a child of God! Say that with me. Really where every you are, no matter who is around, just say out aloud, "I am a child of God!" Who knows someone next to you my need to hear that. These words have changed my life. When you confess that you are a child of God, so much changes, because when you are a child of God you are given so much. You are told that God is pleased with you. He gives you hope. He gives you strength. He gives you power, and he makes you an heir to His kingdom. But the best gift that you get when you are a child of God, is that you are able to hear and discern the voice of you Father, and when you hear his voice it takes you too a place beyond words.

This week this was the topic of my classes. Every day God was telling me that I was his child and that with me He was well pleased, and it brought healing to me in so many areas that I did not even know were hurting. He showed my that I was worthy. He showed me that I was forgiven, and he showed me that I was provided for. Although the entire week I was searching guidance, I was seeking a word from God that I could not ignore and doubt. Then came our last class, but it was not really a class, as much as it was an invitation by every staff person and student to invite the Holy Spirit to come in to our hearts, illuminating the Father heart, to wreck our hearts for him, and that is exactly what he did.

I started out the time by asking a simple question that God had communicated to me through Marty to ask every day. Lord, what do you have for me right now. I started praying and listening and I heard nothing. I kept praying and pursuing but I could not hear anything, and I was started to get upset. Then I realized that with that frustration I would never be able to hear God, so I set it at the foot of the cross the best that I knew how, and then subtly, I heard him say kneel down and give me everything that you have. So, I knelt down where I was at and prayed and quieted my heart, and I began to hear a faint voice, but it was still to soft for me to make out.
I began to pray my heart to God. Telling him how I wanted to serve him. How with in me there is this heart throbbing desire to shake the nations world wide. Then I thought I heard him say good because that is what I made you for, but immediately I thought that was pride and arrogance slipping in, so I threw it from my mind.

Then I opened up the scriptures to Ephesians 1: 15-18, and I began to read Paul's prayer for the Ephesians, and I got to verse 16 and I lost it. You see since I left First Baptist I have thought like I failed them, and that I disappointed and let down every one there. To be honest, I have felt like because of this choice I was disowned, although I cannot really tell you why I felt that, maybe it was a lie from the Enemy to separate me from my church. But I read these words that Paul gave thanks for the Ephesians and remembered them in their prayers, and God said this what your church has been doing for you since you left. They have thanked me for you and remembered you, and they are proud of you. They have not disowned you. They love you and are so proud of what you are doing for me. And when God told me that I broke down in tears and I went back down on my knees.

Tears are rolling down my face, and God says to me I am pleased with you too. I have this amazing plan for you, and I am going to use you to do amazing things, to lead the nations. And immediately I thought this is just what I wanted to hear, so I told God do not let this influence what Marty tells me when he comes over here to pray over me. Tell him what I need to hear, even if it he means he tells me that I am just going to stay home and never go to the nations. I just sat there crying and then Marty came over.

With oil in his hands Marty anoints me by the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, and makes a cross on my forehead, and then stamps my hands as if they were the wounds on the cross, and he goes silent. He comes back and he says God has so much to tell you. And through Marty God told me 4 things that were my heart cries:

1.) You have been set apart by me since the beginning, and you can see that when you look around you, like the prophet Jeremiah I have set you apart in order to be a prophet to the nations.

2.) This may seem confusing because I have also given you the pastoral heart of Timothy

3.) With this heart you are going to bring healing and redemption into the lives of my people

4.) I want to give you every gift that you need. I want to give you all that I have. I will give you all of me. Just do not hold back from. If you give me all of you, I will give you all of me, and with that we will change the world.

This is such a high calling, but it was one that my hard longed for, and when Marty spoke those prophetic my heart jumped into a place of peace where I was giving everything over to him, and I was just balling. Then God started to show me he was not lying. He sent me to a friend here and I prayed for her, and she busted down in tears saying I have been praying that someone would speak those words to me all day that you just told me. And while we were praying she said this is the first day that she has been happy for so long she cannot remember. God was already using me to bring the healing he said I would. It was such an uplifting moment of confirmation.

The Father Heart of God desires to tell his people his desire for his children, and he praises when they rejoice in that calling. God wants to tell you his plans for your life, just like he did with me. You are his child, and with you he is well pleased. Don't hold back God wants to love you because you are his daughter or his son. And when he speaks to you like he has spoken to me he empowers you to live a life that you would have ever dreamed. The Father Heart of God is a heart that empowers and heals!